Hi my name is "Chris" and i am a "Degenerate Gambler"
Nice post Chris, you"ve made the break, also being very open and honest. Big congrats on self assesment, and making the adjustsments to suit. I am currently trying to find a format towards making a more steady profit/progress instead of win, big win, win then who cares attitude to a downward spiral of los lose lose, oh well it wasn"t my money really cavalier type of attitude.
You say play the night for ~$7 profit, what"s the point?
You also went for the win and not itm beforehand?
Well sometimes, especially with a sm stk, you may be better off accepting to be itm. Then your next tourney could be seen as free rolling, also you would not be going into your 4th trny of the night thinking, shiiiiiiiit?
With regards to small profit, that"s a lot better than losing ~$17, and therefore tonight, all your entries could be seen as freerolls? Just a thought, i am not saying never go for the win.
Your headline post and point is B/roll Management, so yes sometimes take the small amounts and see how you fayre at the end of the month/months. Don"tlook at every tourny as the, "Big One" as a leg upto higher stakes, too soon for your own good.
Another question, if you do find yourself winning at a particular stake, WHY? would you want to throw 1/2 your roll away on a big tourney. That 1/2 may have taken you 2 months to acquire. Are you trying to get rich quick or impress yourself or others with a big win? Carry on at your level, and after 10 months, your roll maybe big enough to take a shot at the big trny for only 5 or 10% of your roll, whereas now you can carry on after a heavy one off loss with a good roll behind you. Who knows, with it only being 5/10% of roll you may play really well because it"s not scared money and end up with that big win to add to your roll or spend as you wish, and still have your B/roll in good order.
Wow sorry about that, gone off on one, me thinks this is self analasys/counselling. Anyway good luck and stick with it, You have addressed it, now give it a chance. Look longterm.
Cheers Paul