OK ... time for reflection on what has been a pretty grim month poker-wise. And I"m going to start by digressing slightly, onto golf story I once read.
Each Summer I really get into golf; into playing it and really into learning it - the swings, the new technology etc. and I read something pretty life-changing a few years ago, an article of Bob Rotella"s (Padraig Harrington"s / Davis Love III"s Mind Coach).
It was all about positive thinking and started off as a story about how Jack Nicholas had told the world that he has "never three-putted the last hole of a tournament or missed from inside five feet on the last hole of a tournament". It"s not true - he has - but he"ll ALWAYS deny it and even almost fight with you if it means keeping negative thoughts from entering his mind.
Read the whole article here if you"re at all interested.
So WTF has this got to do with my poker? Well, the long and short of it is that in the four months that Leigh and I have been playing the DS Satellites to the Sunday Million, I ran a $60 deposit up to $993 with a 30% ROI and ITM stats of 15%. Now, as I type this, I"m sitting with almost $20 in my account, stats of -46% ROI and 10% ITM
I can"t honestly remember playing anything badly / getting my cards in badly that often that it should warrant such a demise. My stats say that I make MORE than my fair share of Final Tables but that I just can"t seem to hit the money spots (usually top 2 or 3) in the 10 Man SnG format ... obviously.
So, questions;
Do I have the right mindset for poker?
Am I thinking TOO positively?
Do I think I"m a better player than I am?
Is it my "ability" to forget bad beats / bad plays that takes me back time after time? And has it cost me over $900?? I suspect so.
I"m now asking myself; what"s the "correct mindset" for poker? I never approach a game (DS or otherwise) thinking I"m going to be out of my depth. That would be defeatist and definitely the wrong mindset IMO. I do approach every game thinking that if I concentrate and make good, educated plays, I will prosper. And if I get a little lucky along the way, I may just be able to hit a decent pay day. If I get sucked out on, hey ho, that"s variance and it"s to be expected.
I"m going to take some time away from the online tables to have a think about where I go from here. Leigh has offered to transfer some of the joint bankroll (which he"s done VERY WELL to build up!) but due to some security issue with my Stars Account he"s been unable to.
My workload has just doubled / tripled in the past week or so so poker will be put aside for the next fortnight at least. I"m sure I"ll get back to youz soon, positive as ever